My new family....

So, I have a new family. We are sisters. We are a very sad little family. You see what makes us sisters is not biology and genes and DNA. We are sisters united in our grief. We grieve every day and will for the rest of our lives for the babies we have "lost". We come from all walks of life and all religious backgrounds and yet there is no one who feels out of place or different. We all grieve the same thing. Some may believe differently about what happened to their baby and where it is now or wether or not they will see them again but it doesn't matter. WE ALL LOST our baby and are grieving for them and that alone unites us. Some feel hopless, some feel hopeful. regardless we are ALL sad so we all comfort each other. Some are further in the journey, we who are not learn from them. Some are very new in the journey, we ALL comfort them no matter where we are in our journey. Those who have experienced it at almost the exact same time can comiserate and experience similar things at the same time. Those further out can offer words of encouragement and share their memories from the begining of their journeys. Even we who start out as beginners grow and in turn reach back to those just starting out. I'm not saying we always get along it's just like any family (especially one with all females) I'm sure there are times of strife and hurt feelings but they are few as we are a very different family. We all know what the other is going thru because we experienced it and we feel like we would never want to add to what is already a life altering hurt.
I love my new family. I am closer to some than others but I love them all. They are in my thoughts daily as individuals and as a whole family unit. While I wish no one ever had to join this family of sisters since they do I am very grateful for the ones I feel closest to at this time.

Molly, I am so glad we met. You and I are the kind of sisters I mentioned who started this journey at the same time and having you to talk to was a life saver. It was reassuring to know someone else was feeling the EXACT things I was at the EXACT same time. And all our similarities... that was just creepy. Good creepy though. :) I just don't know what I would have done without you in the begining and now that I feel well enough mentally to be back online I wanna keep in touch better again. Also I am amazed and inspired by how you've turned around to do such a wonderful thing with March for Babies!!! I'm cheering you on !!

Jen, You are my sister who is further out there in the journey. Yet I feel at times we are in the same place and that is WONDERFUL !! You have insight to share and comforting words to give and yet some days when I just need validation you don't have to "remember" how it felt cause you're still here with me still feeling it too. I am extremely grateful to Sara and the Angel craft project for bringing us together.

Sara, You are my inspirational sister for many reasons. The biggest is your seemingly unshaking faith. You inspire me to hang on and keep believing even on my darkest days. Your bible verses on your posts always comfort me and make me smile. Also you have embarked on the pregnancy journey again and though I am not ready yet watching you gives me hope that I will be able to handle it no matter how anxious I may be. I am so glad I saw in one of your posts on the village that you're from the Huber Heights area and responded to tell you so is my hubby. I also am so very grateful for what you made for Chloe on my due date. I have printed it and put it in her scrapbook with the note that it was made by her "Angel Baby Aunt" Sara.

Rachel, we haven't talked much yet but when we have it has been great. We also have some similairites. They are fewer than mine and Molly's but just as big. The biggest being losing our precious girls the same way. To me knowing I'm not the only one that lost a baby to a horrible "accident" that could not be changed or prevented keeps me from going completely insane.

To everyone else... we may not talk much personally but I read all your stuff on ivillage and even if I can't respond. (some days it's all just to much effort or may hit to close to home and I have to get off cause it makes me feel worse. I'm sure you all understand) I feel your pain and long to be able to hug you and take it all away.
I love my new family and you all keep me sane....