A Comforting Thought...

I often find myself with a bad case of the What Ifs and or the Guilts and then it is always followed by the Whys?? . Sometimes the Whys?? come first but either way it is not fun. A few days ago I was in an especially bad funk and all of the afore mentioned were flying in and piling on me fast. I was driving myself crazy. So I decided to turn on some music, clean and keep busy. While cleaning I found a sympathy card which contained this saying...

WHY ?
That's what we ask.
The truth is, we may never be able to know why.
But we do know that there is no single
"Should have done"
or "Could have done"
or "Did" or "Didn't do"
that would have changed that why.
All that love could do was done.

I love this. It comforts me and quiets the Guilts and the What ifs. I loved Chloe with all my heart and I did everything I could to give her the best. I drank water til I was swimming. I ate healthy, I gave up sweets and I exercised as much as I could. I don't smoke, drink or do drugs. I was careful not to over do and I got plenty of sleep. I took minimal meds and swallowed my awful prenatal vitamin everyday.
ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING it was humanly possible for me to do I did. All to ensure a safe and healthy enviroment for my precious baby. I did this because I loved her so much and there was no way I could have anticipated or stopped what happened. All I can do now is continue loving her and know I did my very best.